ands? said Ed.
Like, I dont kno back toget ers o split up. theyd be unhappy.
Not all of em, I pointed out.
And second marriages? there are loads of happy second marriages.
trummer ay in band.
And ill be h her, said Lizzie.
Yea have been a bad life.
But s a ogeteen years.
Oone of voice t punch you.
e tle to a pub, and Ed boug a pack of smokes from t it doable for us to s sat t me as if ting for me to catch.
I didnt realize you felt t bad, Ed said after a while.
t a clue? Yeaed to kill yourself. But I didnt kno so bad t you ed to patcs t level of misery, way beyond suicide.
Lizzie tried not to laug produced a ing noise, and I took a long pull on my Guinness.
And suddenly, just for a moment, I felt good. It I really love cold Guinness; it I really love Ed and Lizzie. Or I used to love ted tever. And maybe for t time in t fe dos, or at t, anyo ed to kill myself not because I ed living, but because I loved it. And trutter is, I t a lot of people s in feel. t its all fucked up for ts s find a o life, and being s out of it like t… It just fucking destroys you, man.
So its like an act of despair, not an act of nis a mercy killing, not a murder. I dont kno to me. Maybe because I I fucking love Guinness, like I love pretty muc as it sion. And reet, and even t imes its moments like t, real complicated moments, absorbing moments, t make you realize t even imes make you feel alive. And tato c even read Martin C yet, and… ty out there.
And I dont kno made, this sudden flash.