on of Gods po for every moment and sensation of of a single leaf ree, s solid substance and complexity no longer existed for y. So entire and unquestionable ure granted to and inue to live. Yet t of t question its use, ternal omnipresent perfect reality ook up again ies, masses and prayers and sacraments and mortifications, and only t time since mystery of love did like t of some neue of tself. ttitude of rapture in sacred art, ted ed lips and eyes as of one about to s before or.
But ual exaltation and did not allo from even t or lo devotion, striving also by constant mortification to undo t rato acliness fraug under a rigorous discipline. In order to mortify t o reet eyes, glancing neito rig and never beer ime to time also of ting tence and closing to mortify ed no control over led, and made no attempt to flee from noises ion suc. to mortify as inctive repugnance to bad odours s. t ain stale fisink like t of long-standing urine; and odour. to mortify taste ised strict s at table, observed to tter all ts of t by distraction to divert foods. But it o tification of touc t assiduous ingenuity of inventiveness. ion in bed, sat in t uncomfortable positions, suffered patiently every itc a at t part of air miging t saying iffly at s or clasped behind him.
emptations to sin mortally. It surprised o find t at tricate piety and self-restraint tions. s availed tle for t being disturbed in ions. It needed an immense effort of o master to give outlet to sucation. Images of tbursts of trivial anger ed among ers, tc lips and fluso ice of y, by to merge ide of oting or prayer and it failure to do to isfaction a sensation of spiritual dryness togets and scruples. raversed a period of desolation in o urned into dried-up sources. ed imperfections. ual reception of t did not bring s of virginal self-surrender as did tual communions made by imes at t to t. ts ed book ten by saint Alpers and sere foxpapered leaves. A faded love and virginal responses see