say I was boy-crazy.
t by. Peter o say o me. I started sc t and felt tentions, but t er on, errible crus as Ive already told you, I never fell in love again.
t;time ; ts old myself Id forgotten Peter and no longer liked . But my memories of rong t I o admit to myself t t I nothing has changed;
on trary, as Ive groure, my love and no Peter t I still s to tten me completely. I sa no one but Peter could uck in my mind t way.
Ive been in an utter state of confusion today. ed to s, quot;Oer!quot; Ive been tantly, and all day long Ive been repeating to myself, quot;Oel, my darling, darling Petel . .
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o go on living and praying to God t, if out of ers pato my eyes, read t;Oo you long ago.”
Once sex, oo young to understand t kind of desire. But I t I did understand it, and noo me noel!
I sa looked so different. My eyes er. I looked t tely faded from my lips. Im not els not t I can still feel iful eyes gazing at me and c mine. . . Oel, Petel, o free myself from your image? ouldnt anyone itute? I love you, t it simply couldnt keep gro o leap out and reveal itself in all its magnitude.
A ; likely to marry?quot; Id ;Sally, since he makes me feel
good, peaceful and safe!quot; But no;Petel, because I love and all my soul. I surrender myself completely!quot; Except for t one touc ts as far as it goes.
t attic el, sitting on ter talking for a s later I felt el, come to me. t Petel!
EDNESDAY, JANUARY 12, 1944
Dearest Kitty,
Beps been back for t ter be allo scil next for t stomachs.
Im currently going t craze and am diligently practicing my dance steps every evening. Ive made an ultramodern dance costume out of a lacy lavender slip belonging to Momsy. Bias tape is top and tied just above t. A pink corded ribbon completes tried to turn my tennis so ballet slippers, but iff limbs are o becoming as limber as to be. A terrific exercise is to sit on to sit on a cusakes a b